Some days, I hear the same criticisms over and over again. Im a tease. Im fake. Ive changed. Im not who I used to be. And some days, it really hurts. and on others, i've just grown so immune to it, it doesnt phase me anymore. And ive tried to change. Really. I have. Just everytime I try, I try too hard, and end up questioning everything i do, everything i say, and wonder, what will people say about me? And its exhausting. and depressing. because I can never be the girl I used to be.
I hate who I am now. Because I am everything I get criticized for, and it bothers me that I cant change. But most of all, I hate that Im losing friends because of it.
I WILL try to change, but I wouldnt have any high expectations. Im sorry. I really am. But sometimes, I just really dont care anymore.
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